Well I don’t have a book coming out this year after all.
I know, I’m surprised too.
Thankfully, I am surrounded by an amazing community of writers and industry professionals who shared with me their own battles (things happen!) and who have been immensely supportive.
It was weird actually. I have been concerned for months that things weren’t going well. A gut feeling. One of the many things I’ve learned about myself through this process has been that when things go wrong- my default is to try to figure out what I did wrong and what I can do to fix it. (Something I’m working on!) In this situation, however, I did absolutely nothing wrong and there was nothing I could do to fix it. I was a spectator watching things fall apart. It was hard. And certainly not what I wanted (or chose) to happen.
But I kept being reminded, “Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness AND ALL THESE THINGS will be added unto you.” -Matthew 6:33 My Heavenly Father knows my heart and all the things he has put inside of it. One of those things is writing. He knows I have all these stories that I have written and will write for my children, and that it is my heart’s desire for them to be published.
When I write a picture book, I know how it begins and I know how it ends. The middle gets worked out over time. In life, we only know the beginning and we’re stuck in the forever middle. The messy middle where the only thing in our control is our thoughts and our choices. I am motivated more now than ever to do my part (I’m a hustler baby) and let God do what he does best: being the Author and Finisher.
I am not responsible for the outcome of my God-given creative pursuits. HE IS.
I’ve been through a range of emotions over the last few months, but I have landed on relief. I know my Heavenly Father loves me and has beautiful plans for me. I am HOPEFUL that my books will find a home and be published. I am GRATEFUL for the lessons I have learned from this situation. The biggest one being: ALWAYS speak your TRUTH in LOVE.
Thank you so much for being on this journey with me! I am truly excited about the future and being able to share THE YUCKY WORDS, CATCHING THOUGHTS and ALL of my picture books with you real soon! Until then…
What are you HOPEFUL for? What are you GRATEFUL for?
My prayer is for you to rest and remember that all these things in your heart will be added to you, if you seek Him first.